to all my girl-friends (esp. those with boyfriends):

Dear girlfriend,

Thanks. a million thanks and gratitude. for being there when i needed someone to cry to or at my desperate moments. you know you are always the one i call to,message to, talk to at any time when "i feel alone" but we know right inside "we dont wanna be alone" and all we do is stare at the phone, or sneak a peek at his reaction, hoping somehow "it wouldnt be this way anymore". no matter what we wish for, we certainly dont want another heated arguement with our loved ones. and how we always want things to stay the way it is. we tried. we tried to fight all our emotions, to resist being wilful or temperamental but we are always "women". perhaps we enjoy doing this, manipulating our feelings with love. but you know downright it hurts.

it hurts so much and might break us all apart. Today is a great day with Yang, how about you and him? I am happy today, will i be happy tomorrow? love doesnt guarentee "you wont cry" but it's always sunny after a downpour or storm and at the end of the day, we'll still see a "rainbow". No one says the route to happiness is easy. all we can do is find out whats wrong and deal with it. compromise compromise compromise. if its not worth it, perhaps is another letting-go relationship. but if he is worthy, why not let him stay longer in ur life?

No matter what happens or what goes wrong, when you need a hand to reach out to, please call. perhaps i need you too. but fear of what to say and because of my indecisiveness, i decide to suffer all this down my heart. and on the other hand, you were crying in a corner. and because i need you just like you needed me once more.

I wish all my girlfriends happy. happy. happy. everyday happy with life. happy with boyfriends. happy and contented. just happy. (:

loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee, ting